Im a slut 4 massive 10 inch+ cocks

I’ve known since I was a young teenager that 99% of men had dicks bigger than me. I wasn’t gay but when you want to know how it feels to be normal and not worry about your size. But I thought about dick every day and as I had more sex and seen friends dicks I was emasculated and I became more and more obsessive of wanting to know what it was like to have a big cock I asked all my girlfriends about to experiences and they all told me that I was way smaller than other boyfriends that a big cock feels amazing but mine was always good enough. Even though I knew better and as I got older I can’t thinking about big cocks and the more I watch p*** in the morning I watched p*** with even bigger and bigger cocks. By the time I was 25 and married I knew I wanted to experience it was like to be with a man that that had a cock that was a monster and he would be so much stronger and muscular than me and she would go wild and humiliate me and then he would dominate me and make me stay with him because she left disgusted and she would end it cause I never satisfied her. They agree to him taking me to pack next weekend so he lets me stay but I always knew I’d let a alpha male do whatever he wanted and I had 1 experience with a black guy at 27 and I sucked his BBC all night. I wanted to go back but I was afraid of becoming a sissy because he was telling about it all night and I was never so horny ever. My penis stayed limp and oozed crazily. I wish I would have stayed and moved in with him because ever since then I secretly desired it more than anything.